Lolita Moments of the Day

Some of you might recognize the title of this blog post from (the oh-so-spooky) cgl, 4chan's board for cosplay and Japanese street fashion, most notably, lolita fashion. It's quite often that one would see lolita fashion-nostalgia related threads such as the old-school lolita thread, and someone had posted a really cute idea from EGL's yesteryears:

And I thought it'd be a great idea to start adding filler posts about my efforts to live my days a little more pleasant than usual.

Today, I had decided to take a break from going to the gym (I've decided to pick back up on weight lifting again - so rori ~ ) and instead, spend my afternoon visiting my favorite cafe to work on replying to a lolita penpal while wearing lolita.  Here's what she sent me with her letters:

A pad of Pullip themed post-it notes and 3D scrapbook pieces! Btw, the people in the back ground are J.Dilla (R.I.P), Nas, and Madlib who had previously collaborated in a bonus track called "The Sickness". Check it.

I tried to take a photo of my coordinate, but it was too dark and blurry, however, it felt really nice to go out even in a casual/borderline otome outfit because lately, in spite of all of the time I have to get dolled up, I've been feeling quite apprehensive about wearing lolita. I don't know why exactly, but sometimes it feels like too much to be wearing my frills out in public, let alone trying it on and figuring how to coordinate; I often feel overwhelmed just looking at my closet or thinking about it, and so I normally end up going out in a tee-shirt and jeans.

I don't quite want to give it up yet. Maybe it has to do something with being a semi-lone lolita? I have a local community, but everyone's kind of spread out, too busy, and/or sometimes too new to wear lolita with. Maybe it also has to do with living in a very muggle area and something about the Midwestern mentality of not wanting to cause a scene.

Is it strange that in spite of wearing lolita for many years, I often feel uncomfortable wearing anything remotely dressed up on my own while not having anything terribly traumatic happen to me while wearing lolita?

A car accident occurred while I was in the middle of the writing. Fortunately, no one was seriously injured and the police station was nearby, but it was spooky witnessing it so closely. I don't even recall hearing the sounds of the cars colliding (there was, but it happened so quickly); I was too fixated on how easily and smoothly the force of the assaulting car careened the driver's door of the assaulted car. It reminded me of those "oddly satisfying" gifs.

In spite of not being involved in the accident (aside of notifying emergency services), I was pretty shaken up from the incident and it made me think that in spite of my good driving record, that could it happen to me. I often travel far for meetups and it spooks me to think that it could happen and what would happen to me if I didn't make it out alive (of course, my parents worry about it, especially every time I do go out of town). Naturally, paranoia settled in on the drive back home. 

I hope to all of the deities that I get to live a long, healthy, and productive life, but if not, I suppose I'll have to let a trusted friend and member in the community, preferably someone who has worn lolita for a long time and knows how to sell their wardrobe to take care of selling my wardrobe, starting off with discounting pieces for other friends in the community, and then using putting the money toward funeral expenses - hopefully a "green" burial and/or donating my body or body parts to science. I'm such a hippie; I feel guilty for contributing to global warming that I don't want to further contribute to that and further ruining the health of a mortician, and I'm not gothic (lolita) enough to want a post-mortem-like viewing service (plus I think it's gross/weird for people to do ceremonial things to a dead body, even though the reality is that the living body is far dangerous than a dead one).

Of course, knowing me and how much I love to write/type, this was going to be longer than it could have been, but I applaud you for staying with me on this journey, and I want to know what sort of "Lolita Moments of the Day" you have and what sort of things you'd want sorted out before and after your gone. 

If you're really onto the subject of death (you dern gothic lolitas and EGA folks), what sort of funeral would you want? Would you want to be buried in your dream dress? Any choice of music and atmosphere? I personally want to have the original Lavender Town theme song played in it, and a wine and cheese bar for the reception would be nice too because I like that stuff and want people to enjoy it while they can!

Hopefully, these kinds of posts will be more frequent and brief, but if you want to see me get more philosophical, then I'm more than happy to share my views and read yours!